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Life seems dead and so unreal......

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Published: Jan 14, 2014

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....All that left is loneliness..

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"She was crying....her tears touched the pillow...with her right hand she was holding pieces of papers...then with her right hand open she made stop the tears touch her pillow and all letters on her bed....the papers on her right hand was from one of that letters.....she wanted make in pieces all letters but couldn´t help cry when she started with the first one.....then covering his head with the blanket.....under the blanket.....she touch the letters with the left hand remembering that one who had sent them all to her....while she was crying in her bed alone.....she was listening some old vinyls.....she hated that songs.....she never liked the songs.....she hated him.....but he was dead.....was the end of 70's.....she felt so empty....and regret.....she wished never received that letters....that vinyls....accepted his presence...she never loved him back.....and even if once she liked the way he always tried be so sweet with her.....she started hated all about him....and after he died she just hated him much more....cause all his words seemed superficial....she was so frustrated and disappointed with herself.....with life...

In the corner of the bedroom......he watched all her pain without be able to do anything for her.......he was dead.....but what he meet beyond his life.....wasn't god...but an angel.....was her......at first he was happy for see her again......he didn´t care if he was a ghost...a wandering soul....a strange being....or just nothing.....he didn't care about himself....he just wanted see her one more time.....but she was so sad and crying so much....and after noticed all that letters and vinyls in the room he felt something terrible.....and when he tried touch her he couldn't.....she screamed how much she hate him for never really love her and only play with her mind....when he really loved her....but he didn´t have voice to told her all his feelings....and for every tears she sheds....more and more he lost his soul....he looked for the gold crucifix necklace he gave to her......she never believed in God....and in that moment he was the one who couldn´t be able to believe in God....in himself...or anything good in the world...in the universe....or inside his own soul....cause the best person in the world....in his world...the only one he felt something so strong....the one he wanted protect and care....was suffering so much......and he couldn´t blame the destiny.....demons....or God....the only one he could blame for her cry so much....was him....he hated himself so much......

In 1977 she died alone after more than one year tormented by her own demons.....by all he left inside her....he tried help her when she was in difficult time......be in her side....but he only put her in difficult times in the end....he knew she didn´t loved him.....and maybe never could feel that feeling for him....or something like that again....but for like her so much....even if he felt something so special and hard to just put in words....he just wanted made her fell loved.....feel special....but he wasn´t good enough for her....never was...

In the room she had died.....even the most pretty and romantic songs....looks so sad....even after hundred.....thousand years....he never could be able to forgive himself....nerver could forget her....wasn't his fate.....was his choice...and wasn't something like....love.....nothing so superficial like words....but something about really deep feelings....and maybe a soul crying blood...he made her cry....suffer.....die......and all he wanted was protect her forever…"

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Image size

4576x3280px 4.6 MB

Make

SONY

Model

DSC-W320

Shutter Speed

10/800 second

Aperture

F/2.7

Focal Length